Do you accept and/or expect discipline or punishments as a part of your submission?
How do you feel about it?
I don’t care for pain but I accept it as a teaching tool. It has purpose on multiple fronts.
I want to be perfect for her and hope that she believes in me enough to expect the best from me. Not all of my habits are exactly as I would like them to be. My attitude isn’t always what I want it to be. If pain can make me better for her then I willingly accept it.
Secondly, I feel guilty when I have disappointed her. VERY guilty. It eats me up inside guilty. Punishment helps purge the guilt from my system. It is my penance and it is how I earn forgiveness. This allows me to let it go and move on from it and returns me to a better mental place.
So… I guess you could say that I dislike the act but like what it does.