80. 30 Days of submission: Day 24

What are the emotions that most directly let you access submission? What feelings do they inspire?

First and foremost, love is the primary factor that brings me into submission.  When I love I feel like I could move the world for her and I would try if she asked me to.  Nothing feels impossible.  I feel confident, competent, and capable.  I feel strong.  I feel loyal.  I feel warm and safe.  I feel protective.  I feel honored.  I feel awestruck.  I want to make her proud.  I feel everything and it is beautiful.

These others are minor but should be mentioned.  Keep in mind that these push my submission deeper.  The original love-based submission has to exist.  If someone I did not love/submit to did this stuff to me I would probably defend myself with my gigantic and sharpened alpha fangs and claws.

Humiliation.  This preys upon all of my insecure fears… and verifies those fears to be true but it is not a source of rejection.  While it might crush my ego a bit, without rejection the feelings aren’t all bad.

Fear. This is sort of an emotion and a feeling that can drive subspace and feed itself.

Shame/Remorse.  This tends to trigger guilt and put me into a shame spiral that is unpleasant but puts me deeply into a submissive state where I just want to do better.


2 thoughts on “80. 30 Days of submission: Day 24

  1. It is a completely different ballgame when love is involved, be it one–sided or mutual.

    If I had ever had the chance to submit to someone who didn’t love me, I’m positive my submission would not have been as pliable as it was with my husband.

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    1. Thank you, Ms Dixie.

      I have done a bit of submission outside of relationships and it just didn’t feel quite the same. I don’t think I could last very long in the absence if deeper feelings… although I am not sure if I would be miserable or develop said feelings.

      Take care.

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