Do you have submissive desires or fantasies that you have yet to be able to explore?
Two of them exist as fantasies. The lesbian fantasy where I am displaced as the lover by another woman and the fantasy of extended chastity. I have done nearly everything else I had ever wanted to do.
Do some of your desires confuse or frighten you? Do they excite you?
The lesbian one doesn’t confuse or frighten me all that much and it excites me quite a bit. It is something that T and I pursued but to no avail. The short-term prospect is probably more feasible but I’d have to wonder if my submissive psyche would adjust to it in the long-run and find a new level of subspace that I find desirable.
The extended chastity fantasy terrifies me completely. I feel like a walking oxymoron that it arouses me. It’s just something that I know experiencing would be rather unpleasant even if my mind and principles can rationally agree with it. It is PSA for “be careful what you wish for.”