Month: December 2017

Shifts in Fantasy

When my depression sets in I usually find myself blocked from accessing and maintaining the submissive mental space that I hold so dear.  I can catch glimpses of it but the moments are fleeting and I cannot grab on and ride the feelings for any amount of time.  Something else I notice is that to … Continue reading Shifts in Fantasy



When I felt the depression creeping in I told myself that I would stay active.  I would stay in touch.  I would keep writing.  I would keep chatting.  I would keep reading.  I would keep leaving comments. Unfortunately I am not doing well with any of these original goals.  I feel like I am falling … Continue reading Failing

Thoughts on “submission as a gift” and leverage

Over the years I have often heard the phrase "submission is a gift," usually accompanied by a statement about how it should be "given freely."  The idea that submission carries with it worth and is something special is very romantic.  I consider this a noble sentiment that would hold true in a perfect world.   However, … Continue reading Thoughts on “submission as a gift” and leverage

Thoughts on Dominance, Personality, and Domspace

I have been thinking a bit more about this lately as I am now facing the prospect of having to start my life over yet again. A while ago I wrote about submissive mental space and about how that serves as the dividing line for many people that separates their submissive persona from their vanilla … Continue reading Thoughts on Dominance, Personality, and Domspace

It Ends

T and I called off our relationship yesterday.   The split was amicable and a couple of years in the making.  We are now roommates.  There is no rush for either of us to move out as both of us find the arrangement to be mutually beneficial.  She lost her sex drive a few years ago … Continue reading It Ends