When I felt the depression creeping in I told myself that I would stay active. I would stay in touch. I would keep writing. I would keep chatting. I would keep reading. I would keep leaving comments.
Unfortunately I am not doing well with any of these original goals. I feel like I am falling off the planet, retreating into watching shows and reading so that I don’t think about anything and don’t feel anything. I am numb.
I do not have access to the feelings that sustain me and this is bothering me.