Another topic I have been covering in some private discussions lately is the idea of cognitive dissonance. In its basic form, cognitive dissonance is mental anguish you experience when your brain battles itself. In D/s, it frequently occurs in humiliation, when an act or verbal statement makes you feel something is true, but wish that … Continue reading Thoughts on Cognitive Dissonance
Note: The tone of this post might feel a bit negative, but it is actually written from a set of good feelings and a good mental position. It's not supposed to be negative, some of the content just ended up that way. Sayyidsgirl wrote me a thank you post today that was quite wonderful as … Continue reading I carry a double-standard
I've been feeling a little bit unnerved the past few days and I had trouble putting my finger on the reason. After analyzing the feelings that accompanied my past few posts and an observation made by a friend, it finally dawned on me and clarity came rushing in. You will find quite a bit of … Continue reading Thoughts on the existence of the submissive male
To be honest, pegging scares the hell out of me. It makes me cringe. It makes me squirm. It makes every nerve in my body go active and I want to run away. Anything near my hole has me cringing, screaming, and struggling. It seriously terrifies me. Anal penetration was a hard limit of mine … Continue reading Thoughts on Pegging
I have to say that I am having some very excellent conversations with others via comments both on my blog and on theirs. This is the part that I love so much about blogging and the blog community. I have recently had a couple of recurring themes popping up that relate to some of my … Continue reading What would they think?
Over the years I have often found it difficult when trying to discuss the concepts of forced feminization and related humiliation with women. It is a topic that can be difficult for them to empathize with because there isn't really an apples to apples comparison that they can envision. Forced masculinization is something I had … Continue reading Forced Masculinization
There are times when I hate that humiliation is such a strong gateway to bring me to my submissive mental space. There are times when I hate that this process turns me on. When I think about why I carry this frustration, it isn't because I dislike it. It is because I fear that it … Continue reading Thoughts on Humiliation and Self