612. Reintroducing Myself Part 4 – Relationships and Evolving Submission

609. Reintroducing Myself Part 1 – Early Life 610. Reintroducing Myself Part 2 – Origins of My Submission 611. Reintroducing Myself Part 3 – Origins of My Kinks I never had a vanilla relationship, but not for lack of trying. I wanted nothing more than to love someone with all of myself and to be loved by …

611. Reintroducing Myself Part 3 – Origins of My Kinks

609. Reintroducing Myself Part 1 – Early Life 610. Reintroducing Myself Part 2 – Origins of My Submission Continuing where I left off. This post may end up longer than the others. I will fully admit that writing this is proving difficult for me right now. My brain hasn't been working up to its normal capacity …

610. Reintroducing Myself Part 2 – Origins of My Submission

Picking up where I left off after 609. Reintroducing Myself Part 1. The ways that my submission and kinks were formed required the perfect storm of trauma, abuse, and being a child without a healthy emotional toolbox to deal with it all. The details from Part 1 cover the backdrop and environment I was living …

609. Reintroducing Myself Part 1 – Early Life

Due to my extended blogging breaks over the past few years, I figure I should probably do a post of this nature so that the people currently reading have a context and frame of reference for me and what I am writing about. I'm not sure how much detail I will go into on any …

607. Thoughts on Chastity, Genital Humiliation, and Sexual Confidence

A few months ago I stumbled upon a chastity device that sent my submissive feelings into overdrive. It's hard for me to articulate exactly what was going on, but seeing it gave me a mix of terror, extreme emasculation, and ultimately, fixation, while scenarios spun around in my mind of how embarrassing it would be …

605. Thoughts on Consent and D/s

Over the past few years, I have noticed a marked decline in the open practice of D/s within my BDSM community. It has taken me quite a while to figure out what changed within the systems that brought this about. There's never just one reason for shifts like this and I feel like I'm finally …

602. Thoughts on Forced Feminization (2023)

While I normally reserve this topic for my other blog, I have usually felt comfortable discussing it in an analytic sense here. I've been thinking about this a bit as I've been unpacking the and confronting my accumulated damage, particularly with how I fit into the world, kinky or otherwise. I have been well-aware of …

600. Thoughts on Pegging (2023)

As I've been analyzing various aspects of my life through a new lens lately, I have been thinking quite a bit about pegging. It's a complicated topic for me to dig into and I have written about it before, but I'm feeling the urge to get some thoughts out on it again. On the current …

599. Thoughts on Masks, Covered Faces, and Concealed Identity

I received a comment a few weeks ago from Reynardine on my post analyzing Femdom porn that got the gears turning in my brain. Those comments resurfaced while I was working on a drawing over the past few days. The comment included this paragraph: "Another common instant turn off is when the guy’s face is …

597. How I Learned to Fear Women

When I was in grade school in the late 1980s my school district lost a massive sexual harassment lawsuit. As a part of that settlement, the school district agreed to launch a massive sexual awareness education campaign to try and eliminate sexual harassment from schools. This campaign began when I was in the 6th grade …