560. Checking in 06/19/20

I am still alive... kind of.  I started some anti-anxiety medications a few months ago for the first time in 20+ years and they have pretty much eradicated my submissive side and desire to be social so I haven't been keeping up on reading blogs or writing.  This break will probably last until that part of …

559. Thoughts on “Owning it”

This is a follow-up to my last post. I've been thinking more about the healing potential of people owning their inner demons rather than overcoming them.  I know that this is something that I have experienced in some ways.  I can't re-write how my inner-truths work but I can come to terms with them and …

558. Emotional Masochism: “Owning it” vs. Healing

Within the past month or so, I have had a number of interactions with people who were curious about emotional masochism and the possibility of incorporating it into their experiences, play, or dynamics.  A couple of the people were looking specifically at using it as a means to heal from past or accumulated psychological damage. …

557. Thoughts on Degradation vs. Humiliation

A short while ago someone asked me for tips on how to humiliate a sub.  What began as a set of tips soon evolved into a 20,000+ word multi-part write up that had me delving to every aspect I could think of on the subject.  I thought about posting it here, but the response was …

556. Update 12/02/19

I have been doing a lot of leather-crafting lately but mostly posting it on my other blog. I'm not really sure if I should have posted them here instead, but some of the items are more catering to particular fetishes so I have pretty much kept them on the other blog. I've decided to share …

555. Finally made the Top 100

After 9+ years of blogging and 1700+ posts, I finally managed to sneak onto the list of the top 100 sex bloggers at 97.  I believe I received a single nomination for my old blog back in 2016 but had pretty much guessed I would never make the list.  I don't really take part in …

554. Analyzing the Multiple-Domme Fantasy

Note: A lot of this will be rehashed topics from the past year but it is on my mind. A Domme friend of mine recently asked me why her sub has this recurring fantasy about being exposed to, humiliated in front of, and used by a group of (presumably dominant) women.  I find this topic …

553. The Evolving Narrative

I have pretty much given up on the idea of healing certain parts of my damage.  These are the parts that I have been able to integrate into my submission and I honestly find them... addictive to have to face them within the confines of my submission.  Facing the damage head on acts as fuel …

552. Failing to Balance the Two Spaces Part 2

I lost my train of thought while writing Post 551 and never managed to circle back in the way that I had hoped. Over the years I have become well aware of the tug of war between my mental spaces that encompass my service submission and my emotional masochism.  There is no real balance.  Neglect …

551. Failing to Balance the Two Spaces

Something that I have been struggling with lately is the battle between my two submissive mental spaces. There is my service-side. There is my emotional masochist side. Each of these spaces has a distinctly different feel to them and an entirely separate set of preferences, ideals, and philosophies that govern them. My service side wants …