588. Replies to comments

I apologize in advance if I am slow replying to comments. Making these last few posts has really taxed my emotional bandwidth. I do appreciate your comments and thank you for reading. I will try to respond to them when my mind is feeling sturdier.

587. Trauma Brain, Hypervigilance, and Worrying about what other people think

In a few of my recent posts, I have alluded to changes in progressively liberal views and within my local community. I've been thinking about why I find aspects of these to be unsettling for over a year now. I have abandonment issues. Part of how I became a sub is because I wanted to …

586. Submission, Submissive Mental Space, and Dissociation

As I have progressed down this journey of working on my mental health, I've had a few things open up in new ways to view them. I have come to strongly believe that submissive mental space is a form of dissociation. That is, the shift in personality, thought process, morality, priority structure, and behavior that …

585. Thoughts on Femdom and Political Correctness

I'm a bit rusty on gathering my thoughts well enough to write them out, but I'm going to give it a shot and hopefully hit publish without deleting this first. The more time I spend immersed in the in-person local community, the more that I have become aware that there are social shifts happening, evolving …

584. Life Updates 2022

It has been almost a year and a half since my last post (or about a year if you happen to follow my other blog as well) and I'm finally reaching a point where I can gather my thoughts enough to write something. For the past two and a half years, I haven't been doing …

583. The Wild West Era of Femdom

I’ve been wanting to write about this subject for a while now for a myriad of reasons. Some of them are personal, and some are because I feel that this will help explain things like the shortage of both subs and Dommes that surface within local communities and the types of messages that women (both …

582. Recent postings and Fetlife

Sorry for the post barrage today. The majority of posts that I have written lately I composed for Fetlife. They were meant for the ~200ish people on there that I am friends with or are following me. I have rarely if ever put any of my blog writing on Fetlife before, so a lot of …

581. Expressing Desires through Fiction

My apologies if this seems unfocused or a bit jumbled. I still haven't been sleeping well and my brain is turning to mush. Over the last couple of weeks I’ve been doing a lot of self-reflection and having a lot of conversations about people’s struggles in kink. I find that the more “off the beaten …

580. Emotional Masochism: Despair

Despair is one of my kinks that resides within the darkness. I find that it isn’t talked about much. I don’t know many dominants that are drawn to pushing a sub to despair, at least I never hear it talked about. I’m not sure why. Is it because no one thinks that any sub actually …

579. WTF Sexuality? Part 2

I received a few comments on part 1 that I will reply to on their own, but I also wanted to write about one of them here because it was a good question. The equilibrium in which I live is a fragile balance that relies heavily upon having a firm understanding of myself to fall …