182. Thoughts on Idealism vs. Reality

It took me years to craft a set of submissive ideals that represented the type of sub that I wanted to be and was capable of providing the lifestyle that I could both promise and deliver upon.  It took me another couple of years to condition and adapt myself mentally to not only be content …

39. 30 Days of submission: Day 8

Is spanking or corporal punishment a part of your submission? Why or why not? Yes.  It has taken upon various roles and functions within my relationships. Behavioral correction. Regular maintenance to remind me of my place. Depression maintenance.  It brings me to a better mind state. Philosophical reasons.  If hitting me brings her pleasure and …

37. 30 Days of submission: Day 7

Do you accept and/or expect discipline or punishments as a part of your submission?  Yes. How do you feel about it? I don't care for pain but I accept it as a teaching tool.  It has purpose on multiple fronts. I want to be perfect for her and hope that she believes in me enough …

8. Domestic Discipline as Therapy

I have memories of some of my down times when I was with F.  Because our contact and time we could spend together was limited we always did our best to make the most of it.  This at times was a bit tricky as extended solitude is often at the core of my demons. While …

2. What Punishment is to me

I am not perfect. I want to be perfect. Perfect is not just accuracy of action, it is a state of being... a state of mind... an ideal that we chase even though it is impossible to ever reach it. I have always been of the school of thought that if you put all of …